Growing up in a home fraught with physical, emotional and sexual abuse, I did not trust or love people easily. The human relationships God had designed to protect and nurture me failed many times to show me healthy, unconditional love. In my mind love had an evil twin, hate. I knew it was right for me to love and respect my parents. However, the abuse between us made me angry and feel hate. Actually, I was scared and trying to protect myself from further harm. But the form the fear took was hate.

I learned from reading God’s Word, the Bible, that God loved me. 1John 4:9,10 (TLB) God showed how much he loved us by sending his only Son into this wicked world to bring to us eternal life through his death. 10 In this act we see what real love is: it is not our love for God but his love for us when he sent his Son to satisfy God’s anger against our sins.

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Jehovah is kind and merciful, slow to get angry, full of love. 9 He is good to everyone, and his compassion is intertwined with everything he does. Ps 145:8,9 (TLB)

And thank God through the work of the Holy Spirit, I believed in God’s love for me. From a human perspective, there is no reason for me to have wanted anything to do with God, especially when He was referred to as Father. My earthly father was very abusive. I could have easily projected that personality onto my heavenly Father. I accepted Jesus Christ as my Savior as a young girl. I was very aware of the wrong things I did against God’s rules and principles. I wanted to be free of the guilt. I also wanted to be sure I could live in heaven with God some day and never again be hurt by anyone. God’s love for me has carried me through nearly seven decades of life’s difficulties and help me come through with joy and my faith preserved.

Do you hate someone for hurting you? Do you hate yourself for the bad choices you’ve made and the consequences you are experiencing? Do you just hate…everything? Have you directed your hate towards God in anger? He can take it. He does not love you any less because you express anger towards Him. He created you as a unique individual with gifts and abilities that can benefit others and bring Him glory.

But the choice is yours. You need only pray to God and tell Him you want to quit hating. You want to learn to love in a healthy, unselfish way. If you have not trusted Christ as Savior, start there. Then when the Holy Spirit lives within you, you will have the same supernatural power to change your life that raised Christ from the dead. Resurrection of your new life in Christ. Please email me if you want to talk about this.