In Chapter 12 of my book Back from Broken, I explain during especially traumatic episodes of sexual abuse, my mind would split from my body, and I would have what’s commonly called an out of body experience. It means that my mind would go into my bedroom closet and look out the crack in the door while my dad abused my physical body in the bed. This distance that I created in my mind helped me cope with the terror and discomfort my body was going through.  That’s just one reason why childhood sexual trauma is so harmful. As children we have neither the intelligence, understanding, nor life experience to analyze what the abuse means. Frankly, it completely messes us up.

I believe that Jesus Christ is the Son of God, one member of the Trinity. The Trinity is difficult to understand but it’s still true.  By some supernatural event that our minds can’t really comprehend, Jesus was fully man as well as fully God. As a man, He underwent torture and death by crucifixion.  Then He was buried in a tomb which is a cave.

There have been many times in my life when I felt I shared something with Jesus because I know how it feels to be in a dark closet wishing I was dead. This is similar to Jesus being dead in a dark tomb. After three days He rose from the dead. He left that tomb to walk into the bright morning sunlight, a pretty garden, and even to see some of his best friends. Faith in Jesus Christ allows us to have fellowship, or friendship, with the One True God. In my situation after years of counseling and prayer for healing, I too know what it’s like to live a bright life with people I care about. My trauma is a bad memory.

What I want to say to you today is without my faith in Jesus Christ, I could not be the woman that I am today. Because I believe that Jesus death by crucifixion satisfied the punishment God required for the forgiveness of our sins, and I believe that Jesus rose from the dead and is now in heaven, I have the third member of the Trinity, the Holy Spirit, living in my life. By reading God’s words in the Bible and praying for the Holy Spirit to help me understand, I have direction in my life. I learn how to deal with the bad things and be grateful for the good things. I can be honest with you about the experiences I’ve been through so you can be encouraged. You can be healed from your trauma too.

Today, will you trust in Jesus as your Savior so you can have right fellowship with God? Will you seek professional help to talk through all your trauma, get tools to help you learn how to cope with it? Pray God will heal all the brokenness in your heart and mind from sexual abuse?

Come out of your dark cave. There is a world of light waiting for you. I would count it a privilege if you would e-mail me and start a conversation about anything I’ve written today. God bless you.

For I delivered to you as of first importance what I also received: that Christ died for our sins in accordance with the Scriptures, that he was buried, that he was raised on the third day in accordance with the Scriptures, and that he appeared to Cephas, then to the twelve. Then he appeared to more than five hundred brothers at one time, … I Corinthians 15:3-6a ESV