I know about darkness. I experienced it as a child in a cold cellar hiding in my emotional turmoil. My mind was hidden in a dark closet while my body experienced abuse in my bed. I felt the darkness in my soul over guilt and grief of a baby I chose to lose rather than be inconvenienced by his birth. My heart was dark when it broke over my husband choosing another. Yet, I do not live in darkness. And, I choose to use my dark times to understand the pain and sorrow of others.

Do you think I should be talking about the people who hurt me? It won’t help. I have no control over the actions of others. I can only control my responses to their actions. This world is full of evil, but God helped me cope with my painful experiences and the consequences of the aftermath. It was His love for me that gave me strength. Because I believe Jesus’ Christ death on the cross was the payment for the punishment I deserved for my sin, God has forgiven me. Therefore, I am able to forgive others who sin against me. I don’t say it’s easy. I say it is possible. And, without forgiveness, you will not begin to heal.

Shepherds were camped in the countryside guarding their flocks from predators in the dark when a great light burst upon them. An angel from God appeared. “Don’t be afraid!” he said. “I bring you the most joyful news ever announced, and it is for everyone! The Savior—yes, the Messiah, the Lord—has been born tonight in Bethlehem! (Luke 2:10-11 TLB)

Jesus came as a great light to our dark world. He can light up your life too. You can be free of bitterness, anger, guilt, sadness, and grief by accepting Jesus as Savior. Learn how to love and obey Him through the study of His Word, the Bible. You can help others by sharing your story and telling them how to find faith in Christ. 1 Peter 2:9 (TLB) reads: But you are not like that, [people who reject God] for you have been chosen by God himself—you are priests of the King, you are holy and pure, you are God’s very own—all this so that you may show to others how God called you out of the darkness into his wonderful light.

You can stop the cycle of believing the lies in your head that say your abuse has tainted you, damaged you, made you unworthy. The truth is God loves you and made you for a special purpose. He sees what has happened to you and feels great sadness. Yet He knows you can have victory over it all by having a personal relationship with Him. The light of God’s love will give you hope that you can have purpose, peace, and stability in life. You need not stay in the darkness. Jesus said in John 12:46 (TLB)  I have come as a Light to shine in this dark world, so that all who put their trust in me will no longer wander in the darkness.


Choose to leave your darkness. Live with the light of God’s love inside you. Email me, let’s talk about it.


Merry Christmas dear reader.